The final days, The final feelings, The final moments before becoming a Mommy

3 days away from my due date and to say there are a few emotions running through me, is quite an understatement.  It is the most surreal feeling in the world to know that in a matter of days I will no longer just be a wife, teacher, daughter, friend, but also a Mother.  I have said a few times recently that I almost feel in denial that this little guy is really going to come out of me.  Kevin and I (and the rest of our families) have been talking about this little person for so long: dreaming what his personality will be like, who he will look like, what it will be like to have a baby BOY around, etc.  It is unreal that the moment we've been waiting for is now finally here.

There's really just no way to describe the emotions that are felt in the months of pregnancy and especially the days leading up to giving birth.  I think it is so amazing the way God works through the whole process.  I truly believe something inside of you changes the moment you find out you are pregnant and by the end of the pregnancy God has a special way of making you READY for what is to come.  Obviously I'm still nervous and the unknown is a scary thing but considering I'm going to be pushing a tiny human out of me in a few days, I'm extremely calm.  If you know me you know I'm a fairly anxious person, unfortunately.  I do things to try to manage my anxiety but if I allow myself to dwell on unpleasant thoughts it can definitely get out of hand.  However right now I know God is truly with me in these last few days, keeping me calm, keeping me sane, guiding my thoughts in the right direction. And lets give an AMEN to modern medicine and the fact that if and when I can't take the pain anymore, I've got options people.  Ohhhh yes!!

One song that I've been hearing a lot lately is a song called "You Make Me Brave" by Bethel Music.  This song has been speaking to me for months now.  There is a specific part that I find especially appropriate for any situation that might seem frightening or overwhelming:

"You make me brave, You make me brave

You call me out beyond the shore into the waves.

You make me brave, You make me brave

No fear can hinder now the love that made a way."

You can listen to the song HERE

Thank goodness I have a Father in in Heaven who knows my every thought, every fear, every worry, every emotion and goes with me each and every step of my life.  He'll be with me on the day Brayden is born and the days following.  If that's not encouraging I don't know what is.

"You are my hiding place; you will protect me from trouble and surround me with songs of deliverance." Psalms 32:7

"Be strong and courageous.  Do not be afraid or terrified...for the Lord your God goes with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you." -Deuteronomy 31:6

"He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak...but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength." -Isaiah 40:29, 31a

"Cast your cares on the Lord and He will sustain you; He will never let the righteous fall." -Psalm 55:22

~Leah~